LET IT GO

by PAULA

Maybe I should let it all go
The cherished tears, the laughs I fake
Those glamorous smiles of yours
Were never mine to make
It’s like someone took a knife
And cut my heart out of my chest
You know what?
Scratch that.
You can’t cut something out of
somewhere it never was.
For, the life altering organ of mine
Was in the hands of the best
those strong, calloused hands
Entangled with mine
Kept me safe.
They held me near
And I pushed them away!
I was scared of what would happen
If I stayed
If I opened up again
Let someone in
And allowed my nightmares to come out and play
My past changed the way I think
My future just doesn’t seem the same
How can I move on
When my feet are rooted
To where we first kissed
On the sidewalk, in the pouring rain
I know they say if you truly love
Someone
Let them go
If they come back, keep ‘em.
If not, they were never yours in
The first place
But, it’s just so damn hard
Seeing her in your arms
And knowing
That’s where I should be
So,
I suppose,
All that’s left to do
Is sit back and wait patiently.