THE UNEXPECTED

by MARCHE

This way I’m feeling inside, it’s insane
It’s like I can feel it through my vein
Never new someone could feel so much pain
My head hurts so bad I can’t think
“Do you know my name?”
The sound of loud noises, like animals in the jungle
Do you know this is a BIG struggle?
Trying to stay focused
But I’m weak, feeling no muscles
Out of control, I can’t take it,
The way I feel, I can’t make it
HAIR LOSS, WEIGHT LOSS
Looking for brighter days, none giving
Why do I live with this strange feeling?
I’m looking for my life, but it’s been taken…
Friends, family
They’re all gone, they think I’m crazy, so they left me alone…
Looking at my reflection, I bite my nails
I’m scared of my reflection. Can’t you tell?
You talk about me I’M SCREAMING HELP ME OR GO TO HELL!
Hiding up against the wall, don’t know what’s going on at all.
Asking God forgiveness, but I’m scared. Am I ready to change?
Cause what I’m putting in my vein is making me insane
It’s like milk to a newborn baby. So good I grip it when it’s given.
Legs shake words unsaid,
One day I was so gone, I could believe I was dead.
These crazy thoughts going through my head
I cut my arms to relieve the pain, it reminds me of water that goes down the drain
I’m trapped in this body I never wanted.
Sometimes, I believe I feel haunted, walking in the room, I feel eyes stare…
They say God’s a MIRACLE BUT HE’S NOT HERE…
How do I stop these bloody tears?