{"id":356,"date":"2012-03-09T17:52:30","date_gmt":"2012-03-09T22:52:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/?p=356"},"modified":"2012-03-27T07:52:51","modified_gmt":"2012-03-27T11:52:51","slug":"the-unexpected","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/2012\/03\/09\/the-unexpected\/","title":{"rendered":"THE UNEXPECTED"},"content":{"rendered":"<h5>by <span style=\"text-decoration: underline\"><a href=\"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/tag\/marche\/\">MARCHE<\/a><\/span><\/h5>\n<p>This way I\u2019m feeling inside, it\u2019s insane<br \/>\nIt\u2019s like I can feel it through my vein<br \/>\nNever new someone could feel so much pain<br \/>\nMy head hurts so bad I can\u2019t think<br \/>\n\u201cDo you know my name?\u201d<br \/>\nThe sound of loud noises, like animals in the jungle<br \/>\nDo you know this is a BIG struggle?<br \/>\nTrying to stay focused<br \/>\nBut I\u2019m weak, feeling no muscles<br \/>\nOut of control, I can\u2019t take it,<br \/>\nThe way I feel, I can\u2019t make it<br \/>\nHAIR LOSS, WEIGHT LOSS<br \/>\nLooking for brighter days, none giving<br \/>\nWhy do I live with this strange feeling?<br \/>\nI\u2019m looking for my life, but it\u2019s been taken\u2026<br \/>\nFriends, family<br \/>\nThey&#8217;re all gone, they think I\u2019m crazy, so they left me alone\u2026<br \/>\nLooking at my reflection, I bite my nails<br \/>\nI\u2019m scared of my reflection. Can\u2019t you tell?<br \/>\nYou talk about me I\u2019M SCREAMING HELP ME OR GO TO HELL!<br \/>\nHiding up against the wall, don\u2019t know what\u2019s going on at all.<br \/>\nAsking God forgiveness, but I\u2019m scared. Am I ready to change?<br \/>\nCause what I\u2019m putting in my vein is making me insane<br \/>\nIt\u2019s like milk to a newborn baby. So good I grip it when it\u2019s given.<br \/>\nLegs shake words unsaid,<br \/>\nOne day I was so gone, I could believe I was dead.<br \/>\nThese crazy thoughts going through my head<br \/>\nI cut my arms to relieve the pain, it reminds me of water that goes down the drain<br \/>\nI\u2019m trapped in this body I never wanted.<br \/>\nSometimes, I believe I feel haunted, walking in the room, I feel eyes stare\u2026<br \/>\nThey say God\u2019s a MIRACLE BUT HE\u2019S NOT HERE\u2026<br \/>\nHow do I stop these bloody tears?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>by <a href=\"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/tag\/marche\/\">MARCHE<\/a> <\/p>\n<p>This way I\u2019m feeling inside, it\u2019s insane<br \/> It\u2019s like I can feel it through my vein<br \/> Never new someone could feel so much pain<br \/> My head hurts so bad I can\u2019t think<br \/> \u201cDo you know my name?\u201d<br \/> The sound of loud noises, like animals in the jungle<br [...]\n<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":624,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[315],"tags":[79482],"coauthors":[79475],"class_list":["post-356","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","tag-marche"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/356","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/624"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=356"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/356\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":611,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/356\/revisions\/611"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=356"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=356"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=356"},{"taxonomy":"author","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/coauthors?post=356"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}