{"id":528,"date":"2012-03-26T13:40:29","date_gmt":"2012-03-26T17:40:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/?p=528"},"modified":"2012-03-26T13:41:07","modified_gmt":"2012-03-26T17:41:07","slug":"i-have-seen-i-have-been-scared","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/2012\/03\/26\/i-have-seen-i-have-been-scared\/","title":{"rendered":"I HAVE SEEN&#8230;I HAVE BEEN SCARED"},"content":{"rendered":"<h5>by <span style=\"text-decoration: underline\"><a href=\"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/tag\/daezy\/\">DAEZY<\/a><\/span><\/h5>\n<p>I was five years old<br \/>\nan innocent, harmless child,<br \/>\nnot a care in my world,<br \/>\nmy universe.<\/p>\n<p>My grandmothers were rocks,<br \/>\none great, one mother.<br \/>\nThey gave me the confidence to<br \/>\nnot feel like an alien<br \/>\n(not of this world).<\/p>\n<p>The one great?<br \/>\nShe\u2019s gone\u2026<br \/>\nGone like a toy you\u2019ll never find,<br \/>\na puzzle piece dumped in the garbage.<\/p>\n<p>The worst part?<br \/>\nI remember the morning.<br \/>\nWhy?<br \/>\nBecause I was right next to her,<br \/>\nblissfully sleeping and oblivious.<\/p>\n<p>That night\u2026<br \/>\nThat night\u2026<br \/>\nI saw the face of death.<br \/>\nAnd he\u2019s\u2026he\u2019s not a skeleton.<\/p>\n<p>He\u2019s not even a <em>he.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Wings so white, they shine like the heavens,<br \/>\na cloak of white, gliding beneath its feet.<br \/>\nBut its face\u2026<br \/>\nToo cruelly beautiful to describe,<br \/>\ntoo absently horrid to remember.<\/p>\n<p>I have seen the face of God,<br \/>\nnot man,<br \/>\nnot woman,<br \/>\nbut all perfection and glory (intimidating).<\/p>\n<p>War.<br \/>\nI have seen war.<br \/>\nI\u2019m sure it was a dream, but<br \/>\nit seemed too real\u2026<\/p>\n<p>angels fighting for her soul,<br \/>\ndemons dragging her down,<br \/>\nthe devil\u2019s arms around me, telling me,<br \/>\n\u201cSo, so pure. I\u2019ll take you with glory.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>And then\u2026<br \/>\nAnd then\u2026<br \/>\nAnd then\u2026<br \/>\nI woke up.<\/p>\n<p>And the great one was dead<br \/>\nright next to me\u2026<br \/>\nSure didn\u2019t go peacefully, but<br \/>\nfor then, I was almost complete,<br \/>\nbut then, a year later my grandmother died\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Another story, but<br \/>\nshe went the same,<br \/>\nstolen by death, taken in her sleep.<br \/>\nMy grandmothers\u2019 last words?<br \/>\n\u201cLive\u2026for me.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>by DAEZY I was five years old an innocent, harmless child, not a care in my world, my universe. My grandmothers were rocks, one great, one mother. They gave me the confidence to not feel like an alien (not of this world). The one great? She\u2019s gone\u2026 Gone like a toy you\u2019ll never find, a [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":624,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[315],"tags":[79481],"coauthors":[79475],"class_list":["post-528","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poetry","tag-daezy"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/528","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/624"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=528"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/528\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":530,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/528\/revisions\/530"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=528"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=528"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=528"},{"taxonomy":"author","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/blogs.butler.edu\/exclusiveink\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/coauthors?post=528"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}