by PAULA

I’m gonna state a desire
We need to address
We’ve been building new structures
My current capacity won’t allow
So, to alleviate the costs, let’s evaluate tradition.
It was the epiphany to become more
That contributed to revenue were tangled in.
There are mandatory fees we must pay, however.
That we wouldn’t exist without.
It’s in conjunction with the consistency
We chase.
Lectures draw plans outta maintenance.
Plans that have been in the works
For ages to come.
It’s been brought to the forefront
To discuss the potential
We’re currently in the midst
Of, at least, the silent phase.
No public announcement.
No final decision has been made.
A possibility has been thought
But, we’ll evaluate the situation
When it arrives.
For now, relieve some of the pressure.
Let’s keep it inside.

by PAULA

Goodbye, Grandma
your tired eyes will someday rise
Above this lonely shore
I wonder, wish, and always miss
the smiles
and, of course
I’m staying strong
I’ll get along
But I think about you now
And I can’t imagine where I’d be
without your loving vows
I try not to shed the tears
try to hold back the fears
the memories of the wasted years
But I’m coming to a close
How can I get back the times
The wasted tries and heartfelt lines.
Oh, Susana, don’t you cry for me
I remember when we’d sing
But now, I hear the choir bells ring
You’re watching over, looking down.
Can you hear me now?
Are you happy with your eternity?
The lonely days are leaving
I feel you close to me
Can you hear me, grandma?
Your girl, I’ll always be.

by PAULA

Maybe I should let it all go
The cherished tears, the laughs I fake
Those glamorous smiles of yours
Were never mine to make
It’s like someone took a knife
And cut my heart out of my chest
You know what?
Scratch that.
You can’t cut something out of
somewhere it never was.
For, the life altering organ of mine
Was in the hands of the best
those strong, calloused hands
Entangled with mine
Kept me safe.
They held me near
And I pushed them away!
I was scared of what would happen
If I stayed
If I opened up again
Let someone in
And allowed my nightmares to come out and play
My past changed the way I think
My future just doesn’t seem the same
How can I move on
When my feet are rooted
To where we first kissed
On the sidewalk, in the pouring rain
I know they say if you truly love
Someone
Let them go
If they come back, keep ‘em.
If not, they were never yours in
The first place
But, it’s just so damn hard
Seeing her in your arms
And knowing
That’s where I should be
So,
I suppose,
All that’s left to do
Is sit back and wait patiently.