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by DAIZJHA

I don’t believe in death.

I believe in new beginnings.

Honesty, and exploring now, so I know what I like so I can do it again “later.” I believe in communication through other lives, times and realms as you may say. Friends i’ve yet to meet but…met before. Giving me a sense of purpose because I know what this world holds.

Abuse, cruelty, girls and boys craving approval from their loved ones, creeps through me like a bug, etches itself on me like a spider. Infecting and filling my head, my soul like the rank, top class rank scent of sauerkraut.

I throw this place in denial because it’s so vile. Money rules this place. Judgement changes your pace and consequence changes your face because you’re scared. Cuddling the few things you haven’t given up yet.

Animals of humans tearing through you like wolves and turning you into their food that i’ll find the family of sin in ’em. Spending time with the ones you “love” became a task and now you have to ask yourself why you let us bend it.

I am my and us is not, you are you and should live that way but you’re raised to bend and flex with Earth so you don’t get hurt. Soot on ya face, you try to dig but the damn devils pull you back inward you’re climbing again.

Climbing to be free, to be, to see what i see, to hold the key i hold, to walk through the door I’ve seen but you have not her. I’ll give you the key “self-worth,” “self-worth,” “self-worth” to know your king and not a damn human should strike war in you.

Self-worth to know a tell instead of show tell and go to hell because you lied, because you tried to hide what was inside. Self-worth. Power don’t make you, fame won’t break  you, lack of understanding will rape you… of what you deserve. Throw a fat “F U” at the guy next to you cause we don’t bend for no one.

by DAIZJHA

You were wrong
You were wrong about me when you said I was dumb
You were wrong when you hurt that me that couldn’t defend herself
You were wrong when you said I was ugly wrong when you said I’m “black” wrong when you swore I couldn’t amount to anything wrong when you pushed me down
You were wrong
You were wrong when you said no one cared
You were wrong

I’m one of the most intelligent females you’ll ever meet
I can knock down any man
I’m a beautiful gorgeous flawless black woman whose voice makes friends whose heart is big and hearty.
I’m brown not black I’m that chocolate snack you love so much
I have interned for the senate I’ve met the governor the mayor and they both owe me favors

You’ll never knock me off my stand because I will get back up

I’m cared for by so many my funeral would hold 2 college campuses

You were wrong
You were wrong
You were wrong

by DAIZJHA

He’s laughing at the boy who spreads ketchup on his golden chicken.
His laughter’s thick and lofty, filling the room
with its sound, drawing the family’s attention
to the boy. The children join in the laughter,
for this tradition of eating chicken is foreign
and new. Smells of divine meats and vegetables
fill the home, overpowering this laughter.
Again it’s silent and the clang and cling
of silverware resumes.
He’s stuck his gaze on the boy as he eats his
meal and chuckles.
He’s cold yet warm.
He’s the hoe no the pickaxe in the shed.
His light’s dim and suspended in darkness.
He’s the beginning of the hurricane, the instant from calm to danger.
He’s a black onyx wrapped in silk and grunge.
He’s the canyon you wonder where it ends, where it begins.
He’s midnight where everything is hushed and silent but the people know
there are secrets in the dark.
But somehow this boy of weird taste brings out a genuine laugh,
a joyous smile.
A remarkable night.
It has been a while since he’s laughed this laugh
covered in dust and cobwebs from the months and years
of non-use. The family knows
this and they can only be grateful for
that night laughter has never struck that man
so hard he fell from his chair
holding that tiny belly. That night ended
with such beauty in one man’s laugh.

by DAIZJHA

Lost and alone you plead
no one to be there to fulfill your needs
black and white you hold so tight
on a deleted dream of love.
You swear no one cares even though my hand is there
you can’t see it but it is
lost and alone you plead
no one can fulfill your need
my palm stays stretched
wonder for it
release that burden from your chained and torn heart
I’m here
I’ve always been here
you just never looked up
so concentrated on looking down
on yourself you forget
you forgot.
Entertwined we are…
turning to drags
and your razor
won’t heal you
I will I’m yours, your mine, we both
declared this so
so no
I know hun don’t cry any more
no…let it out
I’ll cry with you
I’m alone too.
Don’t worry about right now we’re healing
you, not me
but hold me tighter and you’ll unlock the
chains stitch to my heart and set me fre

by DAIZJHA

I’m tired of cryin for you, sayin goodbye to you
Why
Why all this pain
Why you go away
Come back I need you
And my body and soul plead for you, beg for you
I’m takin my breath, now step two
Hard to forget. I see that love and I want
It this pain and despair I gotta own it
It’s my life.
But why
Why, why
Why goodbye
Why did you lie
Drippin bloody tears from my eye
Yeah as I sigh try to forget
And then I hear by, I have trust issues
And I still love you, got abandonment
Issues but I still need you
Boom…I’m still in love with you